Motivation

I'm going to be seeking help soon.
It's scary and hard but I need it.
I'm struggling with my classes and put everything off until last minute.
I haven't done laundry in weeks probably.
I wash bottles only when I have to.
I am miserable.
I am unhealthy.
I need to find some sort of motivation so that I can feel like myself again.
Alyss is the only thing that has kept me alive at this point.
I want to be better for her.
I just don't know how to be.
I don't know how to get better.